I can’t believe this happened. My husband and I have been married for over two years. I consider our marriage solid, great, and fun.
The frustration was becoming unbearable for me, we no longer communicate as the couple we used to be. Sex in our marriage was history as there was no excitement to it. As an active Christian, I ran to my pastor for counseling. I narrated my family’s problems to my pastor and pleaded with him to intervene by talking to my husband. He agreed and asked me to invite my husband to see him the next day.
When I told him my husband and I were falling apart, he asked me when last I made love to him; honestly I couldn’t remember because it has been a long time. That was when I started having thought about sex. I was filled with erotic thoughts. At that moment, the thought of how handsome and attractive the pastor is filled my subconscious. At first I tried to push the thought off my mind but I couldn’t. The next day, he visited again to continue the praying and anointing. Even though my husband was not around, I still welcomed him because he was always welcomed in members house. Or is it the devil at work? When I narrated what I was going to through, he was moved with so much compassion seeing my tears and came close to console me. He moved closer. He looked me deep in the eyes.
What do I do? I need help as I am seriously dying of guilt.